and when the sky falls down on you, you'd be able to see who is more powerful. you or Him.
without a doubt, the world will end someday. how you fill the days in between now and then, is a different story. it is uncertain. it haven't happen yet. everything is written down but He is the only one who knows your fate from your birth till the very second you take your last breath. not you. never you. besides, you are no god. :)

made a mistake today. small in act but alas, the impact is larger than life. might ruin the very image of what a dai'e should be in the eyes of everyone. since some things are better left unsaid, i'll just left if to Allah to be the prime Judge for my misconduct. as shameful as it is unethical of me, i really didn't give much thought to what i was saying. now i learn the reason for a Muslim to always, always hold their tongue and think things through before uttering anything, the hard way. even the smallest things could be used against you in front of Allah on Judgement Day. Nastaghfirullah, I really had messed up. I feel very sorry for the self that would face Allah later. T_T today is a reminder from Allah for me to repent and to never again do the things that i should not be doing. consciously or unconsciously.

may He accept my cry for repentance, for if He doesn't, then there is no one else who would.
Amin....

there are few things that has been bugging me this past few months.

is practicing Islam is such a bad thing?

is being nice for the sake of being nice is crazy?

is spreading salam is mental?

is being chivalrous is an ajaran sesat?

why was my motive questioned whenever i want to cover my aurah properly in public but when i didn't perform my salah nobody cares a fig about it?

why was i being judged when i make friends because Allah told me to but when i make enemies people just shrugged their collective shoulders?

i'd like to ask a simple, very uncomplicated question here.

what is happening here? in a so-called model Islamic country, for crying out loud!

so, people, whose perspective are you using when you are making a query? Allah's or some theorists whose own knowledge is just a minute dust compared to their Maker's?

you decide.

to whom it may concern

I might sound harsh but i do not want to cloud you mind and shadow your weaknesses. for the truth always hurt but it'll make you stronger. Pardon me but someone had to be the devil's advocate and from my perspective, better me than strangers. i know you're mad but maybe, just maybe if you could look through all this mess, you'd see that i only want the best for you.

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Hadis 19 / 40 : Dari Abu Al Abbas Abdullah bin Abbas radhiallahuanhuma, beliau berkata : Suatu saat saya berada dibelakang nabi shollallohu ‘alaihi wa sallam, maka beliau bersabda : Wahai ananda, saya akan mengajarkan kepadamu beberapa perkara: Jagalah Allah, niscaya dia akan menjagamu, Jagalah Allah niscaya Dia akan selalu berada dihadapanmu. Jika kamu meminta, mintalah kepada Allah, jika kamu memohon pertolongan, mohonlah pertolongan kepada Allah. Ketahuilah sesungguhnya jika sebuah umat berkumpul untuk mendatangkan manfaat kepadamu atas sesuatu, mereka tidak akan dapat memberikan manfaat sedikitpun kecuali apa yang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu, dan jika mereka berkumpul untuk mencelakakanmu atas sesuatu , niscaya mereka tidak akan mencelakakanmu kecuali kecelakaan yang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu. Pena telah diangkat dan lembaran telah kering.

Bila hati rasa sedih, bila diri dilanda ujian,bila perasaan tak tenteram, bila otak tunggang terbalik,

Jangan mulakan dengan mencari salah siapa, jangan mulakan dengan memaki hamun, jangan mulakan dengan merosak diri dan harta,

tapi mulakan dengan memandang kelangit, kemudian pusing kiri kanan, lepas tu tunduk kebumi,

bukan nak cari tahi bintang, bukan jugak nak cari makanan,

lihat alam yang indah ni, kemudian muhasabahlah, siapa Pencipta alam yang indah ni? siapa juga Pencipta khalifah kat bumi ni? siapa Pemelihara bumi dan langit dan seisi antaranya?

Allah Azzawajalla kan? kalau Allah datangkan ujian kepada kita, MESTILAH Allah boleh bimbing kita untuk laluinya.

Umat mukmin adalah umat paling bahagia dan berjaya asalkan sentiasa menjaga Allah. bukan dengan babysit, bukan jugak buat azimat gantung kt tengkuk, tapi jagalah hubungan dgn Allah dengan laksanakan ibadah yg sohih. :)

Sesungguhnya pada penciptaan langit dan bumi, dan pertukaran malam dan siang, sungguh terdapat ayat-ayat (tanda-tanda) bagi ‘ulul-albab’ (ahli fikir). 
3-191: (Iaitu) orang yang mengingati Allah semasa berdiri, duduk dan berbaring dan mereka bertafakur (memikirkan dengan mendalam) tentang penciptaan langit dan bumi (lalu mereka mengucapkan): “Rabbana (wahai Tuhan kami)! Engkau (Allah) tidak jadikan (semua) ini dengan sia-sia. Subhanaka (Maha Suci Engkau/Allah)! Lindungilah kami daripada azab neraka.”  Ali Imran 3:190-191

p/s : Dlm ayat ni, ada doa melihat alam jugak. ^^,

Ramadhan Ramadhan Ramadhan

final semester in Brisbane. Phewww~ has it really been more than a year that I'm here? now now that's not really the reason I'm writing today though.

thought I'd give myself some reward for being able to kick start on the assignments. Alhamdulillah.

now since the Ramadan's going to end, i think I'll write on what I've learnt throughout the blessed month InsyaAllah.

the first parts of Ramadan (i.e the first 10 days)

-I'm totally nervous few weeks before Ramadan. would i be meeting Ramadan? would i be able to be a good Muslim by the time Ramadan is over? would i be able to learn to hold my patience in Ramadan? well the first part of Ramadan taught me that hey, never judge people for whatever wrongdoings they've done or are doing. won't bore anyone about what happen but really, the most important part is the ibrah from the events happening in the first 10 days of Ramadan. oh2 and i learnt to swallow my anger and slap on my smiling face whenever i feel irritated or angry. yeah! i did it Alhamdulillah.

the second parts of Ramadan (i.e 10 days in the middle of the holy month)

-getting the hang of it. manage to not feel angry when something doesn't come my way. got a bad news though. *sigh* a very challenging weeks for me. though i seemed somewhat calm, i manage to really forgot about doing a few tutorial tasks and got confused about the assignments. felt numb for a few days. but Allah is always there to comfort me when i feel alone. Alhamdulillah. i learnt to see the positive side of Allah's plans. He knows better then His creations.

the last parts of Ramadan (duh~ the last 10 days of course)

-starting to get back on my feet. missing my family but hey, who wouldn't? *smile* but I'm feeling empty though. Ramadan is ending! would i be able to gain the Night of alQadr? would i be able to get my past sins redeemed? would i be able to meet ramadhan again next year? lot of questions but only Allah knows and He is the best planner~ OK, though the period hasn't end yet, I've learnt quite important lessons; hold on to Allah come what may and yes, ukhuwwah is sweet! I now found that i have more brothers and sisters that i used to believe. i have siblings in Australia, Saudi, Palestine, Sudan, Syria and yes, all around the world. MashaAllah! how blessed am i!

before i get carried away, I'd best stop here. :)

a wish to all....

Eid Mubarak peps and Taqabballahu minna wa minkum!

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with all my heart and soul~

http://hijrah-generasirabbani.blogspot.com/2011/07/kenapa-saya-berubah.html

Him and me

seconds turn to minutes, minutes turns to hours

yet here i am at same spot by the window

looking out to the sky pondering upon life

the wonders Allah bestows upon His creations

gone all the sadness that's pressing me down

for i know He will always be watching over me

leading my every step to Him

and ONLY Him alone

could throw away my weariness

make me look life in the eye once again

picking up the dusts on the window sill

i imagine, how easy it is to wipe me off His earth

to blow me into Hell

for once i understand the meaning of total submission

that without Him i'm nothing but specks of dust in His eyes

must i really feel sad because a rejection from His creation?

must i really give up on Him when He promises to love His slaves?

must i then decide that man is more important than their Creator?

manusia

hanya bila dirasa hidup dah diluar kawalan diri

bila mata hanya mampu memandang

bila bibir hanya tersenyum kelat

bila kaki terpahat kukuh ditanah

baru mahu cari tuhan

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.

.

.

.

.

Tuhan dah kata

bila hambaNya cuma cari Dia dalam waktu senang

Dia takkan bagi muka dalam waktu susah

...

books, papers, notes on the ground

eyes staring straight at the clock

tick tick tick

counting the blessed time

till i'm in you're arms again

basked in your warmth

spreading through my heart

hoping to banish my loneliness

in the land of emptiness

and i sat there imagining

would there be time when i could go without you

and my heart shattered at the thought

but still i fight the timeless battle of loving and missing you

distance seems to small a price to pay

for a bright smile of yours

the sign of an eternal love

how i miss you

Mom.

really?!

Bismillahi Rahmani Rahim...

and the lecturers from the college are coming to QUT for a week visit.

its almost like deja vu. nightmare came true.

and they're not even here yet.

Ya Allah, i really am overreacting. T_T

Forgive me, dear lecturers, for i have, indeed, had bad experiences where the college are concern, apart for the wonderful brothers and sisters that i made there and God-given knowledge.

Oh Allah, i seek forgiveness and protection from you...

*seriously, i'm supergood at exaggerating. :) *

some much needed mental kick.

go ahead, AMiRA NAjAT! just go ahead and procrastinate some more. it's not like you're going to DIE tomorrow ey? go on~ it's not like Allah SWT would ask you HOW you used your time up during JUDGEMENT DAY, isn't it? so go now. have fun for a bit more. Mom and Dad's not going to be anymore disappointed of you after all you've said and done in the past. righty? it isn't like Along, Ajam and Ezat really, TOTALLY, hope that you'd succeed here, eh? others doesn't matter when you can just waste some more time in front of the computer. gosh!

Uqbah bin Amre Al-Ansari narrated that the Messenger of Allah said :

"Among the words people obtained from the First Prophecy are : If you feel NO SHAME, then DO AS YOU WISH."

(Al-Bukhari)

Tsk, tsk, tsk...

shame on you.

there's no other time that you would find anything and everything on the net very VERY interesting than the day BEFORE your assignment is due and when you are still lazing through your drafts. T_T

off-task~

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

hmm.. its been awhile since i've posted anything here. been busy this last few months with programs and assignments to spend some time here pouring out my "thought" and "feeling". but' this past few weeks, i've noticed that i've been having problems in focusing and being aware of my surrounding. maybe i' m just too tired. i'm not sure. i almost forgot to do my assignment which is due in 2 weeks time *well this was last two weeks. so its due this week, Thursday to be precise.* should i be concerned? all i know
is that i just want to go home.

well. maybe that's just it. all i need is HOME.

wasalam.

discussing and planning lesson plan reminds me why i choose to remain and go through with this course in the first place, ditto the assignments. ^^

izinkan aku...

Izinkan aku ya Allah
menebar bakti dibumiMu
kecil atau besar bukan neracanya
kerana sungguh yang ku mahu
hanya redhaMu

Izinkan aku ya Allah
menarik saudara-saudaraku
kearah redha cintaMu
kerana sungguh yang ku kejar
hanya kasihMu

Izinkan aku ya Allah
mengetuk hati-hati yang layu
agar kembali segar dengan kalimah agungMu
kerana sungguh yang aku damba
hanya belasMu

aku mampu sabarkan hati
aku bisa cekalkan diri
kalau diizinMu untuk
menjadi sendi2 penyokong ad-Din mu.

kerana sungguh aku cintakan Mu.

this is how much i miss her~

nostalgia menunggu zuhur.

dikala kesunyian menghambat diri, dek kerana kejauhan dirantau orang. dikala wajah-wajah terlihat bukanlah wajah-wajah yang mengisi hati. dikala malam-malam berlalu dengan mimpi-mimpi indah saat tawatangis kita bersama. dikala petang bukan lagi saat untuk minum teh dan bertanyakhabar dan bercerita khusyuk. ibu, ayah, kakak, dan adik-adikku, ketahuilah. aku senang dengan hanya bergantungharap dengan Dia yang Maha Tahu dan Maha Sayang agar sihat dan selamat kamu-kamu disana dan semoga hari berjumpa semula tiba dengan penuh rahmat dan redhaNya. sampai nanti, kekasih-kekasih hati.

this...

and people say a picture is worth a thousand words...

anak murid.

murid-murid.

entiti yang selalu diperhati

selalu eksperimentasi

bagi para sang dewasa

apalah mereka ini

hanya sekadar objek atau item

untuk dicanai, diuli

membentuk rakyat sejati

sudah lama terlihat

dimata kami murid

orang dewasa sangat berkuasa

menentukan arah tuju hidup kami

berapa ratus markah kami

berapa ramai Gred A kami

berapa banyak yang kami perlu pelajari

kalau anak-anak murid yang bijak

tak perlu risau orang dewasa

"Seronok ajar budak pintar, tak perlu hempas pulas"

betul.

sejuk hati mengajar anak bijak

terang hati belaka

tapi anak yang sedikit lambat memaham?

"Saya tak mahu masuk kelas itu.

Budak kurang ajar. Pemalas. Bodoh pulak tu.

Mengapa perlu diajar orang yang pasti gagal?"

mudah sungguh ditolak tepi anak-anak itu

tapi sedarkah cikgu?

anak itu jua mahu belajar

cuma perlu dipimpin erat sedikit

cuma perlu disuap sedikit

tapi berapa ramai yang sudi

gengam erat jari anak berhingus itu?

suap cermat mulut anak comot itu?

berdosa cikgu

Allah sudah beri amanah

bukan anak kandung sahaja amanah

anak didik juga pembuka pintu rezeki

sama sahaja darjat mereka

walaupun bukan darah sendiri

ajarlah cikgu

sabarlah cikgu

bila mereka berjaya eja nama sendiri

tahulah cikgu rasa gembira

dan tersenyum para malaikat

melihat Allah memberi rahmati kepadamu

sesungguhnya redha Allah lebih tinggi nilai dari

sijil penghargaan hamba-hambaNya.

p/s : This is for you little brother. Smile, those people will pay later.

Mission If-Possible! yeehaaa...

"In The Name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful."

It might be a bit late for some that i come up with this somewhat chronicle but really, the semester has only just begun. Thus, my late submission of new era resolution. I won't be addressing it as New Year Resolution because its not only applicable for 2011 but hopefully for the rest of my entire being. Now, after putting much thought into this task, along with inspiration from beloved sisters here in KG, I've short-listed 10 items in my Mission If-Possible list, in no particular order.

I, hereby, would try my very best to;

1. Perform my 'salah' as early as possible.

2. Read Quran 3 times per day, at the very least.

3. Cover my 'aurat' properly.

4. Attend classes, lectures and seminars as frequent as possible.

5. Listen to motivational songs more.

6. Work harder in every task i was assigned to.

7. Spend money only when required.

8. Clean my room every week.

9. Call my parents at least once every fortnight.

10. Attend 'khatibah' meeting as often as possible.

Such a short list but hopefully would help me be more organized and may my plan be blessed by Allah S.W.T. Moral support is very much welcomed and needed especially from beloved family and brethren. Pray for me! ^^