smile ^^,

smile

even just a slight lope of your lips

could turn sour to sweet

could turn cold to summer heat

just a little smile

could light up gloomy heart

until it sings in rejoice

until it blooms tenfolds

no words could describe

how one sad soul

could be enlightened

just by the sight of a smile

just a little smile

means nothing to many

but to some

it means a world to them.

nonsensical...

i shouldn't be sitting here writing blog

i always knew that

i need to get back to work

but somehow

writing here makes me feel alive

no not assignment

never assignment

well maybe sometimes

when i'm to absorbed in finishing it that i lost track of time

yeah i did, surprisingly

but writing blog is different

it allows me to be the person i really am

doesn't matter if i'm moody or ready to lash out any second

whats more important is that i can do what i want

oh okay,

i know i'm writing crap

i know i'm not making any sense

i know i'm losing my mind

and i know why

I JUST WANT TO GO HOME~

The Quote 2

this quote sort of caught my eyes when i was browsing through my 55,000 Amazing Quotes application for random quotations. i want to look for a quotation that might suit how i was feeling today to be made as my Facebook status. it's like a habit for me now.

"A relationship is like a rose,

How long it lasts, no one knows.

Love can erase an awful past,

love can be yours,

you'll see at last.

To feel that love,

it makes you sigh,

To have it leave,

you'd rather die.

You hope you've found that special rose,

'cause you love and care for the one you chose.

By : Rob Cella.

this might sound more like a poem to me but, hey, who cares as long as the meaning get through to you. what you mean is more important that how you deliver it. at least that is how i believe.i don't know about you but for me, it has always been like that.

Anyways, my point here being that a friend is really that one true love the stays with you and make you feel as though you world revolves around each other. ^^

why oh why

must be the hormones kicking again!

i knew it.

every time i'm stressed out

it'll start messing with my brain

and most importantly my feeling.

makes me melancholy

makes me temperamental

makes me crazy

*sigh*

why oh why

do i have to feel like this?

hated it though somehow i savour the moment of pure solitude

unfortunately being alone makes me all the more insane!!

what do i have to do?

do i sleep the sadness away?

do i beat out the anger?

or do i scream my lungs out?

guess i'll never find the answer.

never.

at least not in this life.

stay

stay with me.

don't think i could stand to be alone any longer.

stay with me.

even if you feel like leaving.

stay with me.

i need to know i'm not alone.

just stay with me.

even if for a moment.

i promise i won't scream.

i promise i won't lash out.

i promise i'll smile.

even when i'm dying inside.

for when you let go of me

i know i'm no longer exist

i know i'd fall

i know i'd break

i know i'd die.

so just stay with me

even just for a while.

psedohumane. May 10th, 2010.

a single paragraph that narrates my feeling well..

'A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavour by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts' - Washington Irving.

Mom, I Love You with all my heart and until the last breath i take.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers in the world.

dear mom.

dear mom,

i know we are far apart,
i know you missed me and i couldn't call everyday,
i know i'm not a good daughter,
i know i always make you sad,
i know i always make you worry,
i know i always make you cry,
i know i've let you down more times than i could count.

and i know i'm not good with words,
but mom,
i wish i could take back my harsh words,
i wish i could measure up to your expectations,
i wish i could make you proud,
i wish i could make you smile,
i wish i could wipe your tears away,
i wish i could be there whenever you need me,

how i wish i could hug you right now,
but just looking at your picture,
i'll know i'll always be in your mind.

so mom,

forgive me for my sins to you,
and keep me close to your heart,
because i know you are never far from mine.

'Happy Mother Day' to the most wonderful mother in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD..
I LOVE YOU MOTHER.

love,
your daughter.

(written last night)

God's Gift

life is meant to be cherished.

yet what we have been doing?

treating as if life is nothing more than a piece of shit.

that is how we view life

why?

why is it life is so undervalued?

but when other people begin to waste their life

what do we do?

we accused them of not being grateful

to God.

yes God. Our Creator for lending it to us.

but then, how about ourselves?

what have we done to preserve it?

what have we done to value it?

N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

so people, before we start throwing tantrum to people we view as

garbage for wasting their life, think again.

what have we done and change.

please change for ourselves and lets be a model to others

rather than lashing out to them.

pseudohumane (06 May 2010/ 9.07pm)

strong am i?

i cried. just now.

i was browsing the news feed in the facebook when i came across a friend's post.

he suggested for us to read an article entitled, 'kesat airmatamu wahai wanita'.

story written by a woman. a wife. who willingly allowed her husband to marry another woman.

WILLINGLY. Allahuakhbar. She's very strong.

reading this article makes me reflex upon my self.

how can she be that strong.

i know, Allah only test His creations with hardships that He knows we could handle.

i am not questioning Allah's plans.

but I'm just very astound by the woman's courage to endure the thought that her husband is not entirely hers. that she had to share. share the love.

and till now, i have never imagine that love could be share.

it somehow makes me scared to be a wife. to get married.

i don't know if i could have that much courage and endurance.

and i don't know if i could share love.

i just don't know.

hmm...

Only Allah knows the extend of His creation's limit. we can only pray that He would bless us with much needed strength.

Ya Allah, give us the strength and bless us with Your kindness and grace. Ameen...