i used to

i used to think
that You're unjust
letting me face obstacles
when others are happily living
i used to think
that You're mean
making me feel miserable
with life's unfair treatments
i used to feel
that You hate me
when the very world
i feel safe in
crumbles to dusts beneath my feet
i used to feel so lonely and dwarfed
when everyone around me
are laughing away together
and are blessed at every turn
now i'm proud to say
O Allah
i am wrong
You are Just
You are Merciful
You are Kind
and most importantly, You are always here with me
in the beating of my heart
in the breath i take in
in every cell of my being.